54.

Tell me if you think about. Lie. Say you do.

53.

Never fool yourself into thinking a relationship is a fairytale. There are no White Knights or Damsels and you're left feeling ridiculously alone.

52.

Hand him a letter with a lipstick kiss with all your secrets in it, telling him you'll always save a spot for him in your heart, if he wanted it. But all he sees is smudged makeup.

51.

Walk your fingers across his back, over voids left by silence and long nights. He opens his eyes, and you pretend you're asleep.

50.

You never live like you might die tomorrow. With your luck, you'll stuck with your choices for another fifty years.

49.

This is what you do. You make everything that much more complex with your little feelings and hopes.

48.

For during the long nights you could be lonely and helpless, but in the day you will carry on.

47.

All you ever wanted was for him to know everything about you.. and still be able to smile at you the way he should.

46.

Even when they act like how they used to be, that time is passed, gone, will never return. Remember that.

45.

Spend hours, days, months, staring out the window. Remember when they used to love you like you were the only other person in the world.

44.

You used to brainwash all the other little kids into giving you their cupcakes.

43.

Always leave them before things get real. Always, always. You dont ever want to stay long enough for things to go bad.

42.

Hide under an umbrella and wait for the rain. Be patient because it'll come. It always comes.

41.

Love as much as you can, as hard as you can. You're time is almost up and you feel older every day.

40.

Stare at yourself in window reflections while you walk by. Keep up little girl you're falling behind.

39.

You laugh and laugh and laugh until you can almost swear you're happy with yourself.

38.

Everything has a secret meaning, you realise.

37.

You fight for somebody until it kills you. That's just how things work these days, isn't it?

36.

You don't like eating, because who was the first person to think of eating? It makes you uncomfortable you don't know.

35.

You cry a lot. Quietly and for a few minutes. Just enough so you can breathe again.

34.

Nobody will ever be able to love you as much as I do, but I understand you want to see for yourself. See you when you come back.

33.

So there we are, sitting then standing then sitting. Unable to be comfortable around each other.

32.

Take your drugs and be quiet. A little touched in the head but everybody loves it.

31.

It's easy to fall in love. Far easier than it has any right to be.

30.

Sing me to sleep with the words of generic Hallmark cards.

29.

In case you were wondering, I'm doing fine. In case you care, you know.

28.

Pretend you're addicted, and live vicariously through everybody else. Eventually you'll stop pretending but will still be living through other people.

27.

Tell the girl in the mirror you feel fine. Repeat until she believes you.

26.

Think of it as an experiment. A lovely, heart wrenching experiment that will haunt you for the rest of your existence.

25.

Everybody is in love with who I was before. Nobody is in love with me.

24.

Place your hand close to your heart because it's breaking. You're off by about an inch.. but it's still breaking

23.

You lost the one to my heart in your ring of keys. It looks just like every other.

22.

On our last night, bury your face into my pillow. Bury your body in mine. Against mine. And in the long months to come I will smell like you.

21.

Look up, the sky is falling down on you. Laugh because it feels just lovely.

20.

Dont worry about losing your mind. You've more than likely already lost it.

19.

Lock away your heart. Fake amnesia and start again.

18.

Remember how he smiled at you and how you felt. Forget the pain and the blood and the tears. Focus on the smiling.

17.

Somewhere it's all good and right. Find your way to Somewhere.

16.

What's the point in wishing things different? If the Fates had their way, you'd probably still remember every hurt.

15.

Find hope in the flowers. They'll all die yes, but a dozen more will take it's place. Find hope in the smallest things to get you through the long nights and long days.

14.

You keep lying, lying, lying. Even to yourself. And slowly, slowly, slowly you're starting to believe it all.

13.

It's alright darling, I'll go on loving you.

12.

Pretend you know why you feel like slipping. Pretend you know why you're willing to throw it all away.

11.

Calm and collected. Oh but that boy..

10.

Paint your lips up red and smoke some cigarettes. You are the beautiful girl and they love you.

9.

You're falling all over yourself, trying to keep up.

8.

You think you can deal with all the suffering, if he just looks at you with those eyes of his.

7.

And you feel like you're five hundred years old, sitting by the phone wondering why they didnt call.

6.

Leave your mind in a desert. Lock it away with all the sand and just feel for once.

5.

You should have thought ahead. You should have figured what would have happened. Should have known, you should have known.

4.

Be the almost-girl. The one that got away.

3.

You cannot look out a window or walk down a street without seeing their face. But you'll smile and be glad because for a little while they were yours and for a little while that's all you wanted.

2.

Remember kindergarten? Remember how boys had cooties and girls didn't care for them at all.

1.

You can dress yourself up all pretty so nobody can see your past.. but you'll always feel naked, always feel naked.